I always feel the need to explain that it hasn't just been 7 years, because we met 29 years ago. 27 years ago, we had our first date. And stayed together for 6 years. But we were young and stupid and took what we had for granted so we broke up, went our separate ways, and married other people. Those marriages eventually broke up, and 10 years ago, our mothers suggested we see one another again. We did and it was so easy to recognize what we had together.
Apparently, I am the kind of person who has to lose what I had to recognize its value.
Kind of like my health. I was so wrapped up in being "loved for who I am" that I let myself make choices that took me away from me. And suddenly, I didn't love who I am. I couldn't walk places without getting winded, I mean blocks not miles. Taking the stairs was no longer an option. Flying a plane was an exercise in humiliation for not fitting in the seat belt without seriously feeling like I was being cut in half. I judged myself harshly every day. I had lost my health and I missed it terribly.
Today, I have officially lost 10% of my original weight. And I feel positive again. I fit in my clothes. I walk with good posture again. I enjoy walking to do my errands and don't feel inclined to look for parking. I know that I still have around 100 lbs to lose - but I am confident that it will go away. MediFast has given me that confidence. And, I am betting I will keep it gone because once I find something good (and have already lost it once) I know how to hold onto it for a lifetime. And I want a lifetime of healthy living with my husband. We both deserve that.
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